{"id":299,"date":"2018-10-15T23:59:56","date_gmt":"2018-10-15T20:59:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/?p=299"},"modified":"2018-12-19T15:45:47","modified_gmt":"2018-12-19T13:45:47","slug":"sair-cok-iyimsermis","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/2018\/10\/15\/sair-cok-iyimsermis\/","title":{"rendered":"\u015eA\u0130R \u00c7OK \u0130Y\u0130MSERM\u0130\u015e!…"},"content":{"rendered":"G\u00fcnler \u00f6yle h\u0131zl\u0131 ge\u00e7iyor ki…<\/p>\n
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Bu kurdu\u011fum sitenin ad\u0131n\u0131 her ne kadar komiklik olsun diye de olsa “Z\u00fcbeyir’siz Kalmay\u0131n” diye atsam da sanki Z\u00fcbeyir \u00e7ok \u00f6nemli i\u015flerle me\u015fgulm\u00fc\u015f gibi burada iki sat\u0131r yazmaya bile vakit ay\u0131ram\u0131yor. En son askerlik d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m yaz\u0131dan sonra her Ramazan ve Kurban bayram\u0131ndaki ya\u015fanan o bayram tela\u015f\u0131n\u0131 anlatmaya bile vakit bulamay\u0131\u015f\u0131m ne k\u00f6t\u00fc. Ama yine tekrar tekrar bu k\u00f6t\u00fc gidi\u015fat\u0131ma dur diyerek in\u015fallah bu vakitten sonra haftadan haftaya yazmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015faca\u011f\u0131m. Ge\u00e7en Cumartesi dershanenin ba\u015flamas\u0131yla en az\u0131ndan \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m ders \u00e7izelgesini ve o haftan\u0131n \u00f6zetini payla\u015farak yaz\u0131lara devam etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015faca\u011f\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Ba\u015fl\u0131\u011fa gelecek olursak “\u015eair \u00e7ok iyimsermi\u015f” s\u00f6z\u00fc b\u00fct\u00fcn \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 ezbere bildi\u011fim benim gibi terazi burcu olan Feridun D\u00fcza\u011fa\u00e7’\u0131n “FD” \u015fark\u0131s\u0131ndan bir s\u00f6z. \u015eark\u0131daki s\u00f6zlerin devam\u0131 \u015fu \u015fekilde.<\/p>\n
“\u015eair \u00e7ok iyimsermi\u015f yolun yar\u0131s\u0131na m\u0131 geldik?<\/p>\n
E radyasyon neslindeyim biraz erken t\u00fckendim hepimiz gibi.
\nBir yer bul otur \u00f6nce ama yar\u0131lar\u0131ma dikkat et.
\nG\u00fcl\u00fc\u015flerim vard\u0131r elbet; \u00f6nce g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 silmen gerek.
\nBudur; zordur sevmek…”<\/p>\n
Bu \u015fark\u0131da bahsedilen \u015fair ise Cahit S\u0131tk\u0131 Taranc\u0131’n\u0131n “Ya\u015f Otuz Be\u015f” \u015fiiri. Peki bunlar\u0131n ba\u011flant\u0131s\u0131 ne ve neden bunlardan bahsediyorum. Bu gece itibariyle 29’u doldurup 30 ya\u015f\u0131ndan g\u00fcn alaca\u011f\u0131m. \u00d6m\u00fcr ne kadar s\u00fcrer, bir nefes kadar m\u0131 bin nefes kadar m\u0131 Allah’\u0131n takdiri. Cahit S\u0131tk\u0131 Taranc\u0131 bile ya\u015f 35 yolun yar\u0131s\u0131 eder demi\u015f ama 46 ya\u015f\u0131nda vefat ermi\u015f. \u00d6mr\u00fc ne t\u00fcketir? Zaman zaten t\u00fcketiyor. Peki Feridun D\u00fcza\u011fa\u00e7’\u0131n dedi\u011fi gibi radyasyon mu? Radyasyonu bilmem ama \u015fu bulundu\u011fumuz zamanda \u00f6mr\u00fc k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fck t\u00fcketiyor. \u0130nsanlar\u0131 zevk ve sefaya tap\u0131n\u0131r derecesine ula\u015fm\u0131\u015f hayat\u0131n ince ayr\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131, g\u00fczelliklerini ka\u00e7\u0131rm\u0131\u015f daha \u00e7o\u011fa ula\u015fma u\u011fruna haset ve k\u0131skan\u00e7l\u0131k bata\u011f\u0131na batm\u0131\u015f bir vaziyette g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum. Bu k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fckleri fark etmemin sebebi ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131n ilerlemesi ile tozpembe \u00e7ocukluk an\u0131lar\u0131mdan uzakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in mi diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum ama bunun ya\u015f\u0131n etkisi her ne kadar olsa da kendimce hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m kadar\u0131yla genel \u00e7er\u00e7eveden bak\u0131nca bundan 20 sene evvel tv ler telefonlar yokken insanl\u0131k daha samimiydi diyebilirim.<\/p>\n
Herneyse… Konuyu da\u011f\u0131tmadan sadete gelecek olursak. Ya\u015flan\u0131yoruz. Ac\u0131larla ve k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fcklerle. Belki de \u00f6mr\u00fc hayat\u0131m boyunca ge\u00e7irdi\u011fim en bo\u015f senelerden biriydi. Askerli\u011fi tamamlay\u0131nca \u00f6n\u00fcmde \u00e7evrenin benden beklentisi ve yuva kurma vs i\u00e7in hi\u00e7bir engel kalmay\u0131\u015f\u0131 beni \u00e7aresizli\u011fin e\u015fi\u011fine s\u00fcr\u00fckledi. Bu vakitten sonra hi\u00e7bir garantisi olmayan kpss s\u0131nav\u0131 i\u00e7in ne ders \u00e7al\u0131\u015fabilirdim ne de ba\u015fka etkinlikler. \u00c7evrenin beklentisi, ailenin bekletisi ve senin hayallerinin bir bir y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131. Askerden sonraki s\u00fcre zarf\u0131nda abimlerin yan\u0131nda muhasebede \u00e7al\u0131\u015farak devam ettim. Ama gelin g\u00f6r\u00fcn ki psikolojim ger\u00e7ekten alt \u00fcst. Hele ki en son y\u00fcz\u00fcme kar\u015f\u0131 s\u00f6ylenen “hi\u00e7bir \u015fey olmaz senden, kayg\u0131s\u0131z kayg\u0131s\u0131z ya\u015f\u0131yorsun” ve devam\u0131nda edilen s\u00f6zlerden sonra ne demem gerekti\u011fini bilemedim. Bu gibi s\u00f6zleri \u00f6\u011fretmenli\u011fi okuyup bitirene kadar elbette duydum ama bu ya\u015fta duymak ger\u00e7ekten \u00e7ok a\u011f\u0131r \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc verecek cevap bulamay\u0131\u015f\u0131m \u00e7aresizli\u011fimin belirtisiydi.<\/p>\n
Yazacak \u00e7ok \u015fey var asl\u0131nda. Bug\u00fcnl\u00fck fazla bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemeyece\u011fim. Daha \u00f6nce bahsetti\u011fim gibi haftadan haftaya zaten yazmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015faca\u011f\u0131m ve hem o haftay\u0131 de\u011ferlendirip hemde ge\u00e7mi\u015fte ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m an\u0131lardan da hat\u0131ralar payla\u015faca\u011f\u0131m in\u015fallah.<\/p>\n
Bu arada do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcm hen\u00fcz gelmeden \u015fimdiden hat\u0131rlayan ba\u015fta annem ve olmak \u00fczere arkada\u015flar\u0131ma da te\u015fekk\u00fcr ederim. Yaz\u0131ma Cahit S\u0131tk\u0131 Taranc\u0131’n\u0131n o me\u015fhur “Ya\u015f Ouzbe\u015f” \u015fiiri ile son veriyorum(Bug\u00fcnk\u00fc yaz\u0131m\u0131 koyu yerler zaten \u00f6zetlemi\u015f). Sa\u011fl\u0131cakla Kal\u0131n…
\n(16.10.2018 00:00)<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
YA\u015e OTUZ BE\u015e<\/strong><\/p>\nYa\u015f otuz be\u015f! yolun yar\u0131s\u0131 eder.
\nDante gibi ortas\u0131nday\u0131z \u00f6mr\u00fcn.
\nDelikanl\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdaki cevher,
\nYalvarmak, yakarmak nafile bug\u00fcn,
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131na bakmadan gider.<\/p>\n
\u015eakaklar\u0131ma kar m\u0131 ya\u011fd\u0131 ne var?
\nBenim mi Allah\u0131m bu \u00e7izgili y\u00fcz?
\nYa g\u00f6zler alt\u0131ndaki mor halkalar?
\nNeden b\u00f6yle d\u00fc\u015fman g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz,
\nY\u0131llar y\u0131l\u0131 dost bildi\u011fim aynalar?<\/p>\n
Zamanla nas\u0131l de\u011fi\u015fiyor insan!<\/strong>
\nHangi resmime baksam ben de\u011filim.<\/strong>
\nNerde o g\u00fcnler, o \u015fevk, o heyecan?<\/strong>
\nBu g\u00fcler y\u00fczl\u00fc adam ben de\u011filim;<\/strong>
\nYaland\u0131r kayg\u0131s\u0131z oldu\u011fum yalan.<\/strong><\/p>\nHayal meyal \u015feylerden ilk a\u015fk\u0131m\u0131z;
\nHat\u0131ras\u0131 bile yabanc\u0131 gelir.
\nHayata beraber ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z,
\nDostlarla da yollar ayr\u0131ld\u0131 bir bir;
\nGittik\u00e7e art\u0131yor yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z.<\/p>\n
G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn ba\u015fka rengi de varm\u0131\u015f!<\/strong>
\nGe\u00e7 farkettim ta\u015f\u0131n sert oldu\u011funu.<\/strong>
\nSu insan\u0131 bo\u011far, ate\u015f yakarm\u0131\u015f!<\/strong>
\nHer do\u011fan g\u00fcn\u00fcn bir dert oldu\u011funu,<\/strong>
\n\u0130nsan bu ya\u015fa gelince anlarm\u0131\u015f.<\/strong><\/p>\nAyva sar\u0131 nar k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 sonbahar!
\nHer y\u0131l biraz daha benimsedi\u011fim.
\nNe d\u00f6n\u00fcp duruyor havada ku\u015flar?
\nNerden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 bu cenaze? \u00f6len kim?
\nBu ka\u00e7\u0131nc\u0131 bah\u00e7e g\u00f6rd\u00fcm tarumar?
\nNeylersin \u00f6l\u00fcm herkesin ba\u015f\u0131nda.<\/p>\n
Uyudun uyanamad\u0131n olacak.
\nKimbilir nerde, nas\u0131l, ka\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131nda?
\nBir namazl\u0131k saltanat\u0131n olacak,
\nTaht misali o musalla ta\u015f\u0131nda.<\/p>\n
Cahit S\u0131tk\u0131 TARANCI<\/p>\n
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G\u00fcnler \u00f6yle h\u0131zl\u0131 ge\u00e7iyor ki… Bu kurdu\u011fum sitenin ad\u0131n\u0131 her ne kadar komiklik olsun diye de olsa “Z\u00fcbeyir’siz Kalmay\u0131n” diye atsam da sanki Z\u00fcbeyir \u00e7ok \u00f6nemli i\u015flerle me\u015fgulm\u00fc\u015f gibi burada iki sat\u0131r yazmaya bile vakit ay\u0131ram\u0131yor. En son askerlik d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m yaz\u0131dan sonra her Ramazan ve Kurban bayram\u0131ndaki ya\u015fanan o bayram tela\u015f\u0131n\u0131 anlatmaya bile vakit […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":307,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[84,86,85],"class_list":["post-299","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-denemeler","tag-sair-cok-iyimsermis","tag-yas-35-siiri","tag-yolun-yarisina-mi-geldik"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/299","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=299"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/299\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":332,"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/299\/revisions\/332"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/307"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=299"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=299"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=299"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}