{"id":9,"date":"2017-01-02T19:20:41","date_gmt":"2017-01-02T17:20:41","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/?p=9"},"modified":"2017-01-10T16:23:24","modified_gmt":"2017-01-10T14:23:24","slug":"ask-asla-paylasilmayan-bir-sir","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/2017\/01\/02\/ask-asla-paylasilmayan-bir-sir\/","title":{"rendered":"A\u015fk, Asla payla\u015f\u0131lmayan bir s\u0131r&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Geri d\u00f6nerken Kara \u015eahin ba\u015f\u0131ndan ge\u00e7en her \u015feyi anlatt\u0131, Yeye dinledi. \u0130nand\u0131 m\u0131? \u0130nanmad\u0131 m\u0131? Duygular\u0131 karmakar\u0131\u015f\u0131kt\u0131\u2026 Yusuf onu dinlerken \u015eahin\u2019in k\u00fclhan karde\u015fli\u011finden sonra kendisine ne derece g\u00fcvendi\u011fini ve karde\u015fli\u011fini sahiplendi\u011fini akl\u0131ndan ge\u00e7iriyordu. E\u011fer g\u00fcvenmeseydi, sevdi\u011fi kad\u0131n\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 onunla payla\u015fmazd\u0131. Hatta yine de payla\u015fmamal\u0131yd\u0131. Kendisi ya\u015f\u00e7a ondan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckt\u00fc, ama a\u015fk bahsini onun kadar basit g\u00f6rm\u00fcyor, sevgiliye dair olan her\u015feyin de\u011ferli oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Hem annesinden dinledi\u011fi \u00f6yk\u00fclerde, hem babas\u0131ndan kalan elyazmas\u0131 risalelerde sevgilinin ad\u0131n\u0131n biriyle payla\u015f\u0131lmas\u0131 bahsi anlat\u0131lm\u0131yordu. A\u015fk kitaplar\u0131 b\u00f6yle bir bab a\u00e7mam\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Kitaplara g\u00f6re bir s\u0131r olmal\u0131yd\u0131 <strong>a\u015fk, asla payla\u015f\u0131lmayan s\u0131r<\/strong>\u2026 Hay\u0131r, hay\u0131r, kendisi \u015eehnaz\u2019a olan a\u015fk\u0131n\u0131 asla kimseciklere payla\u015fm\u0131yacakt\u0131, payla\u015fmamal\u0131yd\u0131. E\u011fer payla\u015f\u0131rsa i\u00e7indeki a\u015fk\u0131n azalaca\u011f\u0131ndan emindi. Okudu\u011fu kitaplar b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e2\u015f\u0131klara s\u0131k\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131ya bunu tembih ediyolard\u0131. \u201cA\u015fk ki, ancak s\u0131r olarak kal\u0131rsa kalpte \u00e7o\u011fal\u0131rd\u0131.\u201d B\u00f6yle demi\u015fti annesi bir seferinde ve sonra da ona Leyla\u2019n\u0131n s\u0131rlarla b\u00fcy\u00fcyen a\u015fk\u0131n\u0131n hik\u00e2yesine anlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. E\u011fer iki ki\u015finin aras\u0131ndakiler s\u0131r olmaktan \u00e7\u0131karsa yaln\u0131zca dillerde \u00e7o\u011fal\u0131r, dostlu\u011fun, vefan\u0131n de\u011ferini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. Hay\u0131r kesin kararl\u0131yd\u0131, \u015eehnaz\u2019\u0131n a\u015fk\u0131n\u0131 y\u00fcre\u011finde saklayacak, ne \u015eahin\u2019e, ne ba\u015fkalar\u0131na s\u00f6yleyecekti. Bimarhane\u2019de onun ad\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi\u011finde hekimler \u00e7are mi bu\u015fabilmi\u015flerdi sanki. \u015eehnaz\u2019\u0131n hayalinden utanmal\u0131yd\u0131 \u015fimdi, ad\u0131n\u0131 deliler meclisinde and\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in. Kararl\u0131yd\u0131; bir daha ayn\u0131 hataya d\u00fc\u015fmeyecekti, \u015eehnaz\u2019la alakal\u0131 hi\u00e7bir \u015feyi, hi\u00e7bir kimseyle payla\u015fmayacakt\u0131. Ta ki akl\u0131n\u0131 yitirmi\u015f ve kendini kaybetmi\u015f olsun\u2026<\/p>\n<p>\u2666\u2666\u2666<\/p>\n<p>-derkenar-<br \/>\n<strong>a\u015fk, asla payla\u015f\u0131lmayan s\u0131r<br \/>\n<\/strong>Leyla\u2019ya sordular:<br \/>\n\u201cSen mi Kays\u2019\u0131 daha \u00e7ok sevdin; yoksa o mu seni?\u201d<br \/>\nKara g\u00f6zl\u00fc, kara sa\u00e7l\u0131, kara benli Leyla i\u00e7 ge\u00e7irdi, \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc:<br \/>\n\u201cDostlar, bu nas\u0131l bir soru, bana b\u00f6yle bir soruyu nas\u0131l sorars\u0131n\u0131z ki?!.. Elbette ben onu daha \u00e7ok sevdim, onu beni sevdi\u011finden\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201c\u0130yi ama Leyla. O senin i\u00e7in deliye d\u00f6nd\u00fc, \u00e7\u00f6llere d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc, ad\u0131 Mecnun\u2019a \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 ve kurtlarla, ku\u015flarla konu\u015fur oldu\u2026\u201d<br \/>\n\u201c\u0130\u015fte bak\u0131n, o gitti, bana olan a\u015fk\u0131n\u0131 ona buna anlatt\u0131, ben ise aha \u015furac\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, kalbimin i\u00e7inde onun a\u015fk\u0131n\u0131 saklay\u0131p durdum, hi\u00e7 kimse ile ne payla\u015ft\u0131m, ne kimseye dert yand\u0131m. \u015eimdi siz karar verin, o mu beni daha \u00e7ok sevmi\u015f; ben mi onu?!..<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Geri d\u00f6nerken Kara \u015eahin ba\u015f\u0131ndan ge\u00e7en her \u015feyi anlatt\u0131, Yeye dinledi. \u0130nand\u0131 m\u0131? \u0130nanmad\u0131 m\u0131? Duygular\u0131 karmakar\u0131\u015f\u0131kt\u0131\u2026 Yusuf onu dinlerken \u015eahin\u2019in k\u00fclhan karde\u015fli\u011finden sonra kendisine ne derece g\u00fcvendi\u011fini ve karde\u015fli\u011fini sahiplendi\u011fini akl\u0131ndan ge\u00e7iriyordu. E\u011fer g\u00fcvenmeseydi, sevdi\u011fi kad\u0131n\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 onunla payla\u015fmazd\u0131. Hatta yine de payla\u015fmamal\u0131yd\u0131. Kendisi ya\u015f\u00e7a ondan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckt\u00fc, ama a\u015fk bahsini onun kadar basit g\u00f6rm\u00fcyor, [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":12,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"aside","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[16,19,17,20,18],"class_list":["post-9","post","type-post","status-publish","format-aside","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-denemeler","tag-ask","tag-asla-paylasilmayan","tag-bir-sir","tag-hikaye","tag-leyla-ile-mecnun","post_format-post-format-aside"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=9"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11,"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9\/revisions\/11"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/12"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=9"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=9"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/zubeyirkilci.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=9"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}